It’s Mothers Day. Keely made me a really great card. We had a long hug.
Facebook is full of Happy Mothers Day wishes.
I miss my mom.
So it’s been kind of bittersweet. The joy of being a mother, coupled with the reality that I’m now one of the many who don’t get to hear their mom’s voice on this day.
My former sister in law Kate Day lost her mom unexpectedly this week. Her children, my nieces and nephew Lauren, Beth and Paul lost their grandmother. I think there will be some very fierce hugs in that family today.
Other friends are celebrating their first Mothers Day as a mom. I remember that feeling.
No matter how old I get, when I’m down or feeling sick I want my mommy. I want to crawl into her lap so she can rock me. I want that feeling of love and security, of peace, that I always got when my mom wrapped her arms around me.
It used to be easy to capture that feeling. I could meet her, or go to her house, walk up to her and put my arms around her. There was never a hesitation, her arms wrapped me in love and acceptance without a word being spoken.
I hope my kids feel that way about me.
It’s harder, but less complicated now to talk to my mom and get that hug. I have to dig deep into memories to recapture those feelings. But I don’t have to pick up a phone or get in the car. I close my eyes, take a deep breath and feel my moms love all through my soul.